I waited there face down in the grass practicing breathing and trying not to focus on anything else. There wasn't any pain at first.
People ran around doing things I couldn't comprehend, a silver blanket was thrown over me but I was in complete shock, so nothing mattered at all.
An ambulance came after about 45mins and I remember the first paramedic asking me a few questions but nothing sunk in. The blanket was lifted to show him my leg and without a word he turned and left, heading back to his ambulance. 'Useful', I thought.
They gave me a green whistle and I vaguely drew deep breaths of it. I remained calm. I didn't really know what was happening so I kept clawing at clumps of grass.
Jasmine, Harry's eldest sister was rubbing my back and telling me to keep breathing and that I was doing amazing.
Mallory, the middle sister was holding my leg, if I looked back at it over my shoulder I could see my tibula/fibula doing little circles in the air, I think it was looking for my foot which was still laying on the ground next to me.
They had got the bike up and off of me but left me exactly where I fell because, well obviously my foot was dangling by threads of tendons and by bones were jutting out into thin air and other parts of bones were jammed into the muddy earth. It was a hellish scene.
A second ambulance had arrived and a really buff guy called Tim came to speak with me.
I was making weird noises now in between breathing deeply.
"Daniel, have you ever had Ketamine before", Tim asked.
"Yes, once recreationally and a very small amount. I didn't like it at all", I replied.
"Ok, well you bones are stuck in the mud and we need to get them out, so I'm going to administer a really large amount of it so you won't feel what we have to do. Now, you are going to feel really spaced out but if you stay positive it can be a good trip, just try not to worry ".
Tim explained this in a very calm comforting manner and I thought well it sounds pretty hectic but better than dying in a paddock, so I consented.
What happened next is as vivid today as it was then, which is almost two years ago, and will haunt me for the rest of my life.
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